You walk tall with your boots n' spurs, but it hides how lonely you really are, much like the perfect spread of make up, plastered across a chiseled face so full of fake fuckin confidence even the head douche bag of the football team is fooled. You get by Julian, but how far? Far enough to make it home, wipe off the lie and then do what? Sit with poised composure while you try so perfectly to roll that green little self saver of whatever real confidence and belief in yourself that you have left. Crush up and or swallow the little yellow pills of relaxed sunshine and waste another lonely night water-logged, sitting just on the outside of dank depressing reality. No matter how much you put on, you won't ever escape whats really underneath, what's really there, waiting. What's really you.
I just hit submit art, and rambled the first shit that came to mind.
It sounds like you dated a fake Julius Caesar?
Haha, I guess you could say that?
bad Breakup when you wrote it?
Its actually a representation of myself..i wrote it when I was feeling down a bit ago. I have a character I created named Julian I used to write with..
Any more of your works ha include Julian? On, that note, describe this persona
I may have a few things in my gallery.
And, oh god..describe? Well I guess to put it simply, everyone, I believe has a somewhat bit of a confident side, some times, people express it more, by dressing a certain way, wearing make up, acting a certain way...etc; I could go on forever...especially under the circumstances right now lol being intoxicated haha.. Anyway, I made up Julian I guess as an extended and brought to life, somewhat realistically pertaining to me, and my personality, and how I have acted in the past, and or sometimes may still act like.
Sorry if this all may not make sense, its kind of difficult to explain
No I think I do actually, Julian is that part of you you want to grow from and learn from so that when older you don't relieve some of the mistakes, problems or faults of this persona. By writing it down it gives way to creative ideas and stories for use.
And honestly I like stuff like this. Where the author uses an avatar of some part of them to use for their their stories where they freely interact with them.